I just needed somewhere...

to say what is in my heart. I love my husband. We are going through something a bit rough right now. And he so easily could tell me to smarted up and stop being silly. But he doesn't. Instead he listens to me as i go on about something neither of us is able to change. He lets me cry, and even sympathizes with me. He has a heart unlike anyone i've ever met. And in soo many ways that i can't even count, I can see exactly how he was created to fit me. Where i zig, he zags. Where i am weak he is strong.He meets the spots in me that are sore and tender from a life before Christ and he soothes them. I honestly feel that God put him here to hold me untill i get to heaven and can be healed by my creator, in heaven where there are not more tears.
If i could be a perfect wife, he would still be too good for me, yet here i am, weak and needy, sometimes broken and he has chosen to love.... me. I don't understand it. And to think, that Jesus sees me with nothing in the way, he sees into the very center of my being, all of the ugly, and loves me anyway. Today though still sad, I feel like a very loved, and very blessed woman.

It all happens so fast

It seems like yesterday that I was constantly in the process of changing diapers, nursing babies and patting for gas bubbles. Time has flown by so quickly, i can barely process it all, i can hardly capture still pictures from out of the blur. My baby, now 5 told me today that she is going to drink coffee everyday, because she wants to stay little so she can live at my house forever. I find that hard to not encourage :) I wish there was a constant video stream that i could rewind and play over and over again. but there is not.So i will store up my memories in my own faulty drive and dust them off in the years to come and examine each one, like the precious jewel that it is. God has blessed my life. over abundantly. I am drinking from my saucer.